Okay, well it's not that scary, but it feels that way. I'm sending the first chapter of my book out into the world. Okay, it's not going far, but it's still really scary. I wish I wasn't such a fraidy cat, maybe my life would be so different. It seems like I've been scared most of my life of doing what I want to do. Writing is my opportunity to try something different. And I'm scared as hell.
Merry Christmas to everyone! I'm so excited for the holidays, and so ready for them to be over. I'm looking at the calendar wishing that 2008 was here and I could start over fresh. I think I go through this every year, but I'm hoping that after all the tradegy that we've had this year, we'll have smooth sailing this year.
I'm starting to finally feel better. I still have a really bad cough, but otherwise I'm doing fine. The cough meds seem to be working less and less so I'm figuring I'll have to make one more trip to the doctors. Maybe it'll be fixed by Wednesday so I don't have to make a call at all.
Well I don't have much to say right now. Well I do, but I'm actually thinking about sitting down and writing. That's a pretty big improvement so I better jump on it while I still have it!
Monday, December 24, 2007
Sunday, December 09, 2007
Please stop the voices....
Watching Brady I seriously contemplated the fact that I have ADD. Obviously I'm not hyper so we weren't twins, but man did we have some similar tendencies. Now as it's Sunday night, and I should be sleeping, my mind is going about five million miles a minute. I feel so crazy right now and it's so strange. I've been so tired the last couple days, especially with being sick, that it's annoying to actually not be able to sleep. I want to get over this cold and get on with my life. LOL!
So how do I fix this. Well my plan is to first honor my promise to my dearest friend in the world. I have been such a flake with everything going on that I feel like I have neglected my most wonderful friendships. So I'm reading Stephie's review that is due this Wednesday to give my opinion and suggestions. I'll probably get more pysched up so I'm not betting on sleep for awhile. I'm hoping that I can spend a little time getting some of these damn thoughts out of my head too.
Three weeks ago, almost to the hour I was in the bathroom experiencing the first signs of my miscarriage. Since then I've been reading about tests, and causes and all that other crap that fills your mind when you go through a tramatic event. Last week I started tests to see if there is something wrong, but I don't know if that will ever make it better. Is it something that can be fixed, or will we just keep experiencing this over and over again. I don't usually like laying all out there, but I'm scared as shit! I just can't imagine going through it again. And what scares me the most is even thinking about getting pregnant cause I'm always going to imagine that it won't stick. What will get us over the hump? Do we need to move away from the jerk next door to relieve some of the stress around here? What can fix the problem? I love to work on problems to find possible solutions, but I'm scared to death of what my solutions might be. Nick and I have discussed that we are not going to extreme measures to have a baby. Now we have to decide what are "extreme measures". How many tests do I take before we are too emotionally involved in trying to carry a baby to term to actually be able to stop?
It seems in every aspect of my life I'm riding on the wave of "what if's". What is my ideal job, what is the ideal situation, what do I really want to do with my life? Right now, I think it's to work with kids. But if I had the chance I would sit at home work on the chocolate business and write. I have several stories stuck in my head just waiting to get started but I just can't seem to sit long enough to get something out. I started yet another book just recently. I swear I just can't commit to anything. I'm over 80 pages into my first book and can't seem to get my junk in gear to get the rest out. So what if I had the time to actually write with no other worries? I'd probably be running around with my head chopped off, having 100 different stories started but nothing even close to finishing. I promised myself that I would take a little time this last week to write a little and I didn't. I wrote in my journal, which has even been a chore lately. Maybe I'm just too sad about everything right now that it's too depressing to admit my feelings and what is really going on in my life. I mean, really, who wants to write down, have no job, lost baby, might never have a baby, car sucks - it broke again, neighbor is still being a jerk, why the hell does this all happen to me? Man, just looking at that line makes me want to cry! I think that's the hardest part of it all. I don't feel like I can get all this negativity out. I don't want to be like this. I want to get up, dust my pants and move on. I know that it's only natural to greive and be upset, but I don't like being that person. I don't want people to take care of me, I want to be their support. I guess I feel that people don't know how to help me or take care of me anyways, so I don't even want to ask. I know that I'm extremely independent. I like to just take care of something if it needs to be done. Well as long as I don't get distracted by the million other things I'm trying to take care of. But man would it feel nice right now to not have to do anything for a little bit. I wish we didn't have the worry of what do we do if I don't get a job within the next couple week. I wish that we didn't have to worry about all the chores around the house that need to be done, or wrapping the Christmas gifts, or all that other garbage that keeps muddling my thoughts day in and out. I just wish there was a day where I could just sit down and keep writing, whatever that comes into my head, was transferred to paper. Maybe there will be some time, but it seems pretty impossible right now.
I suppose I better get my butt back to reading Stephie's review. It's pretty interesting but the way I'm going I'll never get it done. There's always time to write more later. LOL!
So how do I fix this. Well my plan is to first honor my promise to my dearest friend in the world. I have been such a flake with everything going on that I feel like I have neglected my most wonderful friendships. So I'm reading Stephie's review that is due this Wednesday to give my opinion and suggestions. I'll probably get more pysched up so I'm not betting on sleep for awhile. I'm hoping that I can spend a little time getting some of these damn thoughts out of my head too.
Three weeks ago, almost to the hour I was in the bathroom experiencing the first signs of my miscarriage. Since then I've been reading about tests, and causes and all that other crap that fills your mind when you go through a tramatic event. Last week I started tests to see if there is something wrong, but I don't know if that will ever make it better. Is it something that can be fixed, or will we just keep experiencing this over and over again. I don't usually like laying all out there, but I'm scared as shit! I just can't imagine going through it again. And what scares me the most is even thinking about getting pregnant cause I'm always going to imagine that it won't stick. What will get us over the hump? Do we need to move away from the jerk next door to relieve some of the stress around here? What can fix the problem? I love to work on problems to find possible solutions, but I'm scared to death of what my solutions might be. Nick and I have discussed that we are not going to extreme measures to have a baby. Now we have to decide what are "extreme measures". How many tests do I take before we are too emotionally involved in trying to carry a baby to term to actually be able to stop?
It seems in every aspect of my life I'm riding on the wave of "what if's". What is my ideal job, what is the ideal situation, what do I really want to do with my life? Right now, I think it's to work with kids. But if I had the chance I would sit at home work on the chocolate business and write. I have several stories stuck in my head just waiting to get started but I just can't seem to sit long enough to get something out. I started yet another book just recently. I swear I just can't commit to anything. I'm over 80 pages into my first book and can't seem to get my junk in gear to get the rest out. So what if I had the time to actually write with no other worries? I'd probably be running around with my head chopped off, having 100 different stories started but nothing even close to finishing. I promised myself that I would take a little time this last week to write a little and I didn't. I wrote in my journal, which has even been a chore lately. Maybe I'm just too sad about everything right now that it's too depressing to admit my feelings and what is really going on in my life. I mean, really, who wants to write down, have no job, lost baby, might never have a baby, car sucks - it broke again, neighbor is still being a jerk, why the hell does this all happen to me? Man, just looking at that line makes me want to cry! I think that's the hardest part of it all. I don't feel like I can get all this negativity out. I don't want to be like this. I want to get up, dust my pants and move on. I know that it's only natural to greive and be upset, but I don't like being that person. I don't want people to take care of me, I want to be their support. I guess I feel that people don't know how to help me or take care of me anyways, so I don't even want to ask. I know that I'm extremely independent. I like to just take care of something if it needs to be done. Well as long as I don't get distracted by the million other things I'm trying to take care of. But man would it feel nice right now to not have to do anything for a little bit. I wish we didn't have the worry of what do we do if I don't get a job within the next couple week. I wish that we didn't have to worry about all the chores around the house that need to be done, or wrapping the Christmas gifts, or all that other garbage that keeps muddling my thoughts day in and out. I just wish there was a day where I could just sit down and keep writing, whatever that comes into my head, was transferred to paper. Maybe there will be some time, but it seems pretty impossible right now.
I suppose I better get my butt back to reading Stephie's review. It's pretty interesting but the way I'm going I'll never get it done. There's always time to write more later. LOL!
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Okay, this sucks
Okay, I don't know who has a deal with the man upstairs but can you have him show me a little love from here on out! Yesterday I found out that the family I'm working for has decided to go back to the whole daycare thing. Now I'm searching for a job really really hard and very very quickly. I really am disappointed since I do love the kids and the parents so much. It's hard to believe how attached you can get so quickly. So if you ever wondered how I manage to get myself into these messes, I can honestly say I have no clue!
At least it doesn't look completely bleak! I'm toying with the at home daycare thing again. After looking at it, I might possibly have three neices and a nephew that I would watch and that wouldn't be so bad. I wouldn't need a lot more kids on, maybe one more and that would be more than enough to make ends meet. I just wish Nick and I were in a better place that it would work better in. Guess I gotta make due with what I'm provided with! Hopefully we can still have the opportunity to purchase a different home in the next year. We'll see, never know how things will turn out.
For those of you wondering, I am doing better. I'm still really sleepy but I'm getting better every day. I go back to the doctor next week to talk about what is going on and what the next steps are. Nick and I really are excited to start a family and want to know if it's even an option. Emotionally I don't know if I can continue to go through the agony of having another miscarriage. Unfortunately it doesn't sound like they can do much until they know that it's a recurrant thing for sure. Like it isn't enough torture being a woman, let's throw in raging hormones and the biggest emotional roller coaster just to watch it all crash down again! Thanks a lot!
Oh, and for the side jobs, they are going alright. I am still tinkering with Mary Kay. Just when I think I have the resources to start picking up again is when something big, like losing a job, sets in and I'm pushed back about five steps. I have a big open house this weekend and I'm really excited about that. Hopefully I can get a lot of business from that although I'm no where near ready for it. I haven't even opened my product to see what I have. I should have ordered product but there hasn't been any time and very little money to get it going. Hopefully the chocolate business is starting to pick up. We seem to be having some technical difficulties but the orders keep coming in. I just sent out three orders earlier today, but haven't seen any new orders come in for the rest of the day. I'm really crossing my fingers that it all works out in the end! I am so excited for this project. Check us out when you have a moment. We are still updating and working on changing things around but here's the address www.soufflon.com.
Well I better run and work on figuring out this life I've been dealt!
At least it doesn't look completely bleak! I'm toying with the at home daycare thing again. After looking at it, I might possibly have three neices and a nephew that I would watch and that wouldn't be so bad. I wouldn't need a lot more kids on, maybe one more and that would be more than enough to make ends meet. I just wish Nick and I were in a better place that it would work better in. Guess I gotta make due with what I'm provided with! Hopefully we can still have the opportunity to purchase a different home in the next year. We'll see, never know how things will turn out.
For those of you wondering, I am doing better. I'm still really sleepy but I'm getting better every day. I go back to the doctor next week to talk about what is going on and what the next steps are. Nick and I really are excited to start a family and want to know if it's even an option. Emotionally I don't know if I can continue to go through the agony of having another miscarriage. Unfortunately it doesn't sound like they can do much until they know that it's a recurrant thing for sure. Like it isn't enough torture being a woman, let's throw in raging hormones and the biggest emotional roller coaster just to watch it all crash down again! Thanks a lot!
Oh, and for the side jobs, they are going alright. I am still tinkering with Mary Kay. Just when I think I have the resources to start picking up again is when something big, like losing a job, sets in and I'm pushed back about five steps. I have a big open house this weekend and I'm really excited about that. Hopefully I can get a lot of business from that although I'm no where near ready for it. I haven't even opened my product to see what I have. I should have ordered product but there hasn't been any time and very little money to get it going. Hopefully the chocolate business is starting to pick up. We seem to be having some technical difficulties but the orders keep coming in. I just sent out three orders earlier today, but haven't seen any new orders come in for the rest of the day. I'm really crossing my fingers that it all works out in the end! I am so excited for this project. Check us out when you have a moment. We are still updating and working on changing things around but here's the address www.soufflon.com.
Well I better run and work on figuring out this life I've been dealt!
Monday, November 19, 2007
Life sucks, Part II
Okay, so I'm really getting tired of life just sucking. Nick and I finally felt like we were in a good place and things start to shift for the worse again.
I gave Nick a very special gift for his birthday, I told him he was going to be a daddy. Last night my body changed it's mind though and so now we are so disappointed. We want so badly to have children and after the last miscarriage I thought we would be safe from another. Guess life just doesn't work that way unfortunately.
I'm trying to forget it and move on as quickly as possible. I have started with the holiday decorations and am hoping to get some baking done on Friday! I'm so looking forward to it. It sounds like I'm going to have a ton of kids that want to come help me too! It makes baking even more fun when you get to share it!
Well I suppose I better cut this one short today so I can go get some rest!
I gave Nick a very special gift for his birthday, I told him he was going to be a daddy. Last night my body changed it's mind though and so now we are so disappointed. We want so badly to have children and after the last miscarriage I thought we would be safe from another. Guess life just doesn't work that way unfortunately.
I'm trying to forget it and move on as quickly as possible. I have started with the holiday decorations and am hoping to get some baking done on Friday! I'm so looking forward to it. It sounds like I'm going to have a ton of kids that want to come help me too! It makes baking even more fun when you get to share it!
Well I suppose I better cut this one short today so I can go get some rest!
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Can I just get back to normal?
LOL! Now that's a joke! I'm not even sure what normal is. Just when I think I'm back to a calm existence I realize that I have about five million things to do for something else.
The good news is my job has calmed down a lot. The kids are settled into their new home and Beau is a beautiful baby that doesn't fuss a lot. Nick and I went over there for dinner on Friday night and had a blast. Beth and Brad are great people and I love working for them!
Well the rest of my stuff has been on a little bit of a stand still since I've been working so hard with the boys and I'm so tired by the time I get home. My Mary Kay business has been doing pretty well and I'm looking forward to my open house this year on the first of December. I have everything planned and I am hoping to get all my stuff ready for it way in advance this time. I have the flyers going out early this week so I should be in good shape. The chocolate business is starting off here soon. Tewfic, my partner in chocolate crime, is finishing up the website right now and we'll be ready to rock and roll. Let me know if you ever want a sample and I can get you a few to try! Here's the website so you can check it out www.soufflon.com. They might seem a bit expensive but they are really, really good. Plus you are helping a good cause, ME! LOL!
The house is kinda at a stand still on home projects until probably after the holidays. It seems like all your energy gets sucked up so easily this time of year. I started checking out my holiday address list for Christmas cards. I'll have them done for Thanksgiving so I can get them out by the first of December. I truly love the holidays though. I'm looking forward to putting up the decorations and baking Christmas cookies, especially with the new stove. I'm going to try making a few new treats this year and be sharing as much as I can!
Well I suppose I better get back to money-making work. You know, since it's Sunday morning and I should be resting. Especially since we came home late and I didn't get to bed until 2AM, but that's fine. Guess it means I have to take a nap today! YAY!
The good news is my job has calmed down a lot. The kids are settled into their new home and Beau is a beautiful baby that doesn't fuss a lot. Nick and I went over there for dinner on Friday night and had a blast. Beth and Brad are great people and I love working for them!
Well the rest of my stuff has been on a little bit of a stand still since I've been working so hard with the boys and I'm so tired by the time I get home. My Mary Kay business has been doing pretty well and I'm looking forward to my open house this year on the first of December. I have everything planned and I am hoping to get all my stuff ready for it way in advance this time. I have the flyers going out early this week so I should be in good shape. The chocolate business is starting off here soon. Tewfic, my partner in chocolate crime, is finishing up the website right now and we'll be ready to rock and roll. Let me know if you ever want a sample and I can get you a few to try! Here's the website so you can check it out www.soufflon.com. They might seem a bit expensive but they are really, really good. Plus you are helping a good cause, ME! LOL!
The house is kinda at a stand still on home projects until probably after the holidays. It seems like all your energy gets sucked up so easily this time of year. I started checking out my holiday address list for Christmas cards. I'll have them done for Thanksgiving so I can get them out by the first of December. I truly love the holidays though. I'm looking forward to putting up the decorations and baking Christmas cookies, especially with the new stove. I'm going to try making a few new treats this year and be sharing as much as I can!
Well I suppose I better get back to money-making work. You know, since it's Sunday morning and I should be resting. Especially since we came home late and I didn't get to bed until 2AM, but that's fine. Guess it means I have to take a nap today! YAY!
Saturday, November 03, 2007
Happy One Year Anniversary
So Nick and I made it to the one year mark in our house! I don't know whether to celebrate or scream sometimes. It's actually started to be a count down. One more year and we can move again. LOL! I do love this house dearly now, but it wasn't what I wanted at all when we started out. And those things that I didn't love about it then are the same things I don't love about it now. I've started a checklist of things that I really want in a home and hopefully this time Nick and I can actually talk about it rather than taking what we think we can get. It's still a ways off so I'm trying not to think about it a lot yet.
I finally got through the hard part of my job. The Richardson family is now in their new house and we can start making life for the boys normal again. Brady and Bennett have been over here at the house a few times this week since we need to get out of the way and they love it here. I've been so busy trying to wear them out that I've succeeded in wearing myself out as well. And yet I'm up on a Saturday morning at 6:30AM instead of resting in bed. At least writing is relaxing for me. It's not like I'm up trying to do a marathon!
Well I suppose I should go and actually start my day. I hope all is well with everyone out there!
I finally got through the hard part of my job. The Richardson family is now in their new house and we can start making life for the boys normal again. Brady and Bennett have been over here at the house a few times this week since we need to get out of the way and they love it here. I've been so busy trying to wear them out that I've succeeded in wearing myself out as well. And yet I'm up on a Saturday morning at 6:30AM instead of resting in bed. At least writing is relaxing for me. It's not like I'm up trying to do a marathon!
Well I suppose I should go and actually start my day. I hope all is well with everyone out there!
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Coping with what life throws at you!
After the rough couple years I've had I realized how often that life seems to smoother. Of course there are bumps on the way but they are so small compared to what they used to be.
Our neighbor situation is on its way to being resolved. We are going to court with him on the day before Thanksgiving. Hopefully the driveway will not be closed off anymore and he'll give up on trying to give all of us such a hard time. I know I'm being overly optimistic but I gotta believe in something! Nick and I are social butterflies, well I'm more social when I can stick around home, if that makes sense. I wouldn't mind if they kept to themselves but to sit there and harass us when we are outside is just plain evil.
Everything else in life is pretty much the same as last time. Oh, except we got a new stove. I've loved baking even more since we moved into the house, but the last stove was a little hard to regulate. I'm so excited to bake some brownies this afternoon and actually have them turn out! Nick says I have to learn to make them from scratch now since I've been trying to make everything else from scratch. You should see my cupcakes with royal frosting! YUM! Oh and I make an angel food cake (okay, that was from the box) but I made a strawberry whip cream frosting that was amazing! I was so impressed with myself. And it was for our neighbor girl's birthday and she was so happy!
My life has become so much more calm now that I'm back working with kids. I love just hanging out and learning together. They have so much energy so I get quite the workout (unfortunatly they give me a big appetite too so I haven't lost much weight yet)! My family has remarked how calm I've become. Not that I'm really a high strung person but I was running around like my ass was on fire a lot of the time. I have always known that there is something different in me when I work with kids. Nick used to laugh that I needed my weekly dose of kids to keep happy. I loved Abby, Lexie and Roxie coming over when I worked at Highland Manor, but it wasn't the same. Now I get to be really important in children's lives. Guess I should have stuck with the whole teaching career, but maybe someday that will happen.
Well I suppose I better get working on some stuff. I have a whole house to clean and want to get another chapter finished in my book! Nick's gone for the day so I better take advantage of it while I can!
To all of you at Highland Manor reading this: I MISS YOU GUYS LIKE CRAZY!
Our neighbor situation is on its way to being resolved. We are going to court with him on the day before Thanksgiving. Hopefully the driveway will not be closed off anymore and he'll give up on trying to give all of us such a hard time. I know I'm being overly optimistic but I gotta believe in something! Nick and I are social butterflies, well I'm more social when I can stick around home, if that makes sense. I wouldn't mind if they kept to themselves but to sit there and harass us when we are outside is just plain evil.
Everything else in life is pretty much the same as last time. Oh, except we got a new stove. I've loved baking even more since we moved into the house, but the last stove was a little hard to regulate. I'm so excited to bake some brownies this afternoon and actually have them turn out! Nick says I have to learn to make them from scratch now since I've been trying to make everything else from scratch. You should see my cupcakes with royal frosting! YUM! Oh and I make an angel food cake (okay, that was from the box) but I made a strawberry whip cream frosting that was amazing! I was so impressed with myself. And it was for our neighbor girl's birthday and she was so happy!
My life has become so much more calm now that I'm back working with kids. I love just hanging out and learning together. They have so much energy so I get quite the workout (unfortunatly they give me a big appetite too so I haven't lost much weight yet)! My family has remarked how calm I've become. Not that I'm really a high strung person but I was running around like my ass was on fire a lot of the time. I have always known that there is something different in me when I work with kids. Nick used to laugh that I needed my weekly dose of kids to keep happy. I loved Abby, Lexie and Roxie coming over when I worked at Highland Manor, but it wasn't the same. Now I get to be really important in children's lives. Guess I should have stuck with the whole teaching career, but maybe someday that will happen.
Well I suppose I better get working on some stuff. I have a whole house to clean and want to get another chapter finished in my book! Nick's gone for the day so I better take advantage of it while I can!
To all of you at Highland Manor reading this: I MISS YOU GUYS LIKE CRAZY!
Saturday, October 20, 2007
Another new addition
So it finally happened. I don't have the details yet, but I have another little boy to watch at my job! Beth had boy #3 very early this morning. I stopped in at their home to ask Brad's parents and that's all the details I got so far. I'm very excited to get to meet the little one soon.
So life in general has been so busy. Every time I turn around we are running on to the next thing. Our anniversary came and went, very quickly. We haven't even really got the chance to celebrate yet! Pretty sad considering that we don't have kids stopping us:)
Life keeps getting better though. Still lovin my job and things are finally falling into place. I officially have started helping a friend of my dearest Stephie! I'm shipping out chocolates for his internet chocolate business. We had samples on Friday night and they are awesome. Visit www.soufflon.com to check out more information or to order!
Well I suppose I better get my butt going. I have a lot of work to do and I really want to get some of it done before I fall asleep. Not looking good at this point, my eyes are starting to get really heavy.
So life in general has been so busy. Every time I turn around we are running on to the next thing. Our anniversary came and went, very quickly. We haven't even really got the chance to celebrate yet! Pretty sad considering that we don't have kids stopping us:)
Life keeps getting better though. Still lovin my job and things are finally falling into place. I officially have started helping a friend of my dearest Stephie! I'm shipping out chocolates for his internet chocolate business. We had samples on Friday night and they are awesome. Visit www.soufflon.com to check out more information or to order!
Well I suppose I better get my butt going. I have a lot of work to do and I really want to get some of it done before I fall asleep. Not looking good at this point, my eyes are starting to get really heavy.
Sunday, October 07, 2007
Where did the weekend go?
It's amazing how quickly a weekend can go by! I didn't have much time to myself today or yesterday so I feel a little out of sorts right now. Too bad that I get be thrown right into it again tomorrow, but that's what I love.
No more writing, but I really have been reading a lot. It feels good to read some popular fiction right now. I have been reading some really intense books until lately. I just finished Garden Spells and I'm now reading this book called Little Pink Slips. They are quick books that just help the time fly. I'm hoping that tonight I will have some time to write a little bit.
Well better go! Gotta have some time to get stuff done!
No more writing, but I really have been reading a lot. It feels good to read some popular fiction right now. I have been reading some really intense books until lately. I just finished Garden Spells and I'm now reading this book called Little Pink Slips. They are quick books that just help the time fly. I'm hoping that tonight I will have some time to write a little bit.
Well better go! Gotta have some time to get stuff done!
Sunday, September 30, 2007
Just another week
Well I shouldn't say it's just another week. Nick and I had the cops call on us again by our wonderful neighbor. What an a**hole! We had a campfire last night again, like we love to do, and he claims that within the hour of us lighting it he had to take his wife to the hospital (and somehow magically got back in that time while the Badger game was getting done)! So even though we now have a permit our fire was a public nuisance! What a jerk! He's got another thing coming cause all hell is breaking loose today. We'll get him back!
In other news there isn't much going on! My little charges are keeping me busy and hopefully helping me lose some of that weight I've been trying to get rid of for the last couple of months. Next week we are going to do a lot of outings since it's supposed to rain a ton! Not what I really wanted to hear, but we'll make the best of it!
Well I suppose I better continue on to all my wonderful projects I need to finish today! Oh, I'm helping out a friend with his chocolate business so if you're ever in the mood for some lovely chocolates check out http://www.soufflon.com/. I'm really excited about this venture!
In other news there isn't much going on! My little charges are keeping me busy and hopefully helping me lose some of that weight I've been trying to get rid of for the last couple of months. Next week we are going to do a lot of outings since it's supposed to rain a ton! Not what I really wanted to hear, but we'll make the best of it!
Well I suppose I better continue on to all my wonderful projects I need to finish today! Oh, I'm helping out a friend with his chocolate business so if you're ever in the mood for some lovely chocolates check out http://www.soufflon.com/. I'm really excited about this venture!
Saturday, September 22, 2007
A little bit slow...
Long time, no write! I have been so busy trying to keep up I keep saying I'm going to update my blog but never get the time. So for some reason I was up before 6AM on a Saturday so I'm busy catching up with all the good stuff I've been too tired to do lately!
For all you out there wondering....I LOVE MY NEW JOB!!!!!!! Okay, it does take some getting used to but the kids and the family are great! I'm still a little nervous about the whole baby thing and they just got a puppy too! They are super sweet and the pup is going with them every day to work so I don't have to worry about cleaning up after him. The boys and I are getting into a schedule, not that it works all the time but each day gets better and better. I love the kids to pieces and Brad and Beth are making me feel so welcome! I get constant feedback also which is great after not knowing for sure what was going on ever.
At least I still have time to read and write! I take my book (well both books, the one I'm reading and the one I'm writing) to work on while we have Nap/Quiet Time. I haven't read any to die for books lately, just a lot of fluff, but it's been fun. And the writing is getting better and better. Plus I feel like I have it a lot more organized in my head. I'm taking notes on what I want to add and where the book is going. Actually what is funny, is that I know about the ending more than I know about the beginning. I have the second half of the story pretty much finished. It's the first half of the book that's causing all the problems. All the characters and the deaths of main characters (well they aren't really main characters, they just seem like it right now....another thing to fix) are making my head spin. Then I look and I see that I might know what is going on but I still haven't given the reader enough information to make them see what is going on all around. But at least I'm more concience of it now. I have started making outlines and have lists of what I need to add. I'm so excited though. I've gotten twenty pages of really good writing done in the last couple weeks and a lot more notes to add about another 30 pages. If I keep going this way I'll be able to get the book done by the end of the year. That's my goal. I've already started working on the whole looking for a publisher. I got some research materials at the library so I can start sending out query letters and find an agent. Well I suppose some people are tired of hearing me blabber on about my book so I'll quit for now!
I realized that I'm a little sad this fall. I usually love fall so much, the hot apple cider, colors changing, pumpkins, SWEATER WEATHER!!!! There's so many great things that are associated with fall. But this is the first year I had a garden and I hated to pull all the stuff out of it. This week I started pulling the flowers out of the extra pots that weren't doing the best and pulled up the fence around the garden. The good news is that we are going to to a much bigger garden (Ha! Not like we have the room, but we are making the room) and then I can plant more stuff! I also learned that I don't need to plant so much yellow squash. I have so much in the freezer I don't know how I'm going to cook it all! I'm also hoping that I can plant some pumpkins next year!
Well I suppose I better get working on all the other stuff that needs to be done this morning. The sun in finally up so I might actually get my walk in early! Hope everyone is doing well!!!!
For all you out there wondering....I LOVE MY NEW JOB!!!!!!! Okay, it does take some getting used to but the kids and the family are great! I'm still a little nervous about the whole baby thing and they just got a puppy too! They are super sweet and the pup is going with them every day to work so I don't have to worry about cleaning up after him. The boys and I are getting into a schedule, not that it works all the time but each day gets better and better. I love the kids to pieces and Brad and Beth are making me feel so welcome! I get constant feedback also which is great after not knowing for sure what was going on ever.
At least I still have time to read and write! I take my book (well both books, the one I'm reading and the one I'm writing) to work on while we have Nap/Quiet Time. I haven't read any to die for books lately, just a lot of fluff, but it's been fun. And the writing is getting better and better. Plus I feel like I have it a lot more organized in my head. I'm taking notes on what I want to add and where the book is going. Actually what is funny, is that I know about the ending more than I know about the beginning. I have the second half of the story pretty much finished. It's the first half of the book that's causing all the problems. All the characters and the deaths of main characters (well they aren't really main characters, they just seem like it right now....another thing to fix) are making my head spin. Then I look and I see that I might know what is going on but I still haven't given the reader enough information to make them see what is going on all around. But at least I'm more concience of it now. I have started making outlines and have lists of what I need to add. I'm so excited though. I've gotten twenty pages of really good writing done in the last couple weeks and a lot more notes to add about another 30 pages. If I keep going this way I'll be able to get the book done by the end of the year. That's my goal. I've already started working on the whole looking for a publisher. I got some research materials at the library so I can start sending out query letters and find an agent. Well I suppose some people are tired of hearing me blabber on about my book so I'll quit for now!
I realized that I'm a little sad this fall. I usually love fall so much, the hot apple cider, colors changing, pumpkins, SWEATER WEATHER!!!! There's so many great things that are associated with fall. But this is the first year I had a garden and I hated to pull all the stuff out of it. This week I started pulling the flowers out of the extra pots that weren't doing the best and pulled up the fence around the garden. The good news is that we are going to to a much bigger garden (Ha! Not like we have the room, but we are making the room) and then I can plant more stuff! I also learned that I don't need to plant so much yellow squash. I have so much in the freezer I don't know how I'm going to cook it all! I'm also hoping that I can plant some pumpkins next year!
Well I suppose I better get working on all the other stuff that needs to be done this morning. The sun in finally up so I might actually get my walk in early! Hope everyone is doing well!!!!
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
A New Beginning
Well today was my first official day of my new nanny job. It's a little bit different but I'm so happy I switched. This is going to be the best thing ever. Both little boys are sweethearts. In fact, Brady, the five year old, didn't want me to leave today. But I promised him that I would be back in the morning and he was cool with that! This week is all about setting their schedules and making it a learning experience instead of just being able to stay home and play all day. Not that there is anything wrong with playing but kids need a type of play that helps them learn. Anyways, I'm having fun and enjoying my new family!
But I'm not so sure about the Target thing. I have never worked for a large company and I just don't know about this. I was the last cashier last night at 10 when the store closed and do you think that I could find my trainer, NO! I still don't know where he went but I figured I'd just help someone straighten things up until my shift was supposed to be over. But of course I got hooked up with this crazy lady that wanted to talk about everything and let me know her whole life story! At least this is just a temporary thing. Soon they'll have me on the sales floor and I'll know exactly what I'm doing. Plus I'm only planning on staying till the end of the year. Hopefully things will be much different by that time. Plus I'll have an extra little one that I will be watching at my full time job so I'll be just too tired to continue with both jobs.
My first day at my new job and guess what I got to do for the first hour of work! WRITE! The kids slept in so I got out my notebook and started plugging away. It's unbelievable how long it's taking considering this is kind of my second draft. But each page is generating an additional 2-5 pages of writing which I'm super excited for! That means that the measly little 75 pages it was could actually get to be about 300 pages easily. And that's only the second draft. But the third draft I figure I'm going to start cutting again or at least tweaking the details. I can tell some of the writing coming out isn't exactly what I want it to be.
And I got to read today too. While Bennett was napping and Brady was watching a movie I got the opportunity to pull out my book and read for a little bit. I'm actually thinking about doing it again. Nick is gone bowling for the evening so I should just hop into bed with my book and see how far I can get before my eyes get too heavy. That actually sounds heavenly right now so I think I must go for now.
Oh, one quick side note! I'm so excited Stephie is coming home tomorrow! I can hardly wait. I have been missing her so much and this is the longest she's ever been abroad without visiting.
Okay, now I'm done and I can get back to my book!
But I'm not so sure about the Target thing. I have never worked for a large company and I just don't know about this. I was the last cashier last night at 10 when the store closed and do you think that I could find my trainer, NO! I still don't know where he went but I figured I'd just help someone straighten things up until my shift was supposed to be over. But of course I got hooked up with this crazy lady that wanted to talk about everything and let me know her whole life story! At least this is just a temporary thing. Soon they'll have me on the sales floor and I'll know exactly what I'm doing. Plus I'm only planning on staying till the end of the year. Hopefully things will be much different by that time. Plus I'll have an extra little one that I will be watching at my full time job so I'll be just too tired to continue with both jobs.
My first day at my new job and guess what I got to do for the first hour of work! WRITE! The kids slept in so I got out my notebook and started plugging away. It's unbelievable how long it's taking considering this is kind of my second draft. But each page is generating an additional 2-5 pages of writing which I'm super excited for! That means that the measly little 75 pages it was could actually get to be about 300 pages easily. And that's only the second draft. But the third draft I figure I'm going to start cutting again or at least tweaking the details. I can tell some of the writing coming out isn't exactly what I want it to be.
And I got to read today too. While Bennett was napping and Brady was watching a movie I got the opportunity to pull out my book and read for a little bit. I'm actually thinking about doing it again. Nick is gone bowling for the evening so I should just hop into bed with my book and see how far I can get before my eyes get too heavy. That actually sounds heavenly right now so I think I must go for now.
Oh, one quick side note! I'm so excited Stephie is coming home tomorrow! I can hardly wait. I have been missing her so much and this is the longest she's ever been abroad without visiting.
Okay, now I'm done and I can get back to my book!
Sunday, September 02, 2007
We got the cops called on us...
It's official. We are bad neighbors. The ***hole next door finally called the cops on us. The war just continues. Last week he called the cops on the other neighbor. Now I finally called the cops cause their dog was running loose this week. So what does the jerk do, call the cops cause we were having a fire in the back yard. Aparently they have a health condition that it is affecting. Bad news to them is that once we have a permit we can have a camp fire whenever the hell we want to! I'm so mad I could just go over there and scream at the jerk. I love living here and I love our other neighbors. This jerk really needs to go away. There is only one other person in this world that I hate and he is quickly replacing that person.
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Where is my head?
You know how sometimes your life just feels like it speeds by you. I am definitely having one of those days. I wish that I could have gotten somethings done but rather felt like I was in slow motion all day. My favorite part was Haley falling asleep all snuggled up to me. She curled up to watch Sleeping Beauty. I asked her if she was going to sleep and she nodded her head yes and closed her eyes. Today I proved that I should have no problems with the kids next week even though I was running so slow. I kept one step ahead of Haley this time and I started planning ahead for what I want to do with the kids next week. I've been researching story times and toddler time and all those goodies to keep us occupied. Although I think that we'll wing it most of the time at least in the beginning. I need to see what the kids like first.
In other news, there is no other news. HA! I've just been plugging away at house stuff. Hopefully I will finish it all before I start the new job.
In other news, there is no other news. HA! I've just been plugging away at house stuff. Hopefully I will finish it all before I start the new job.
Monday, August 27, 2007
And so it continues
So having a new job and everything was just to boring for me. I decided to get a second job again since I have better hours to do it. So hopefully next week I will be starting at the Super Target for two nights a week and every other weekend. I love Target so having the discount will help especially for those normal everyday things that you use. I figure that if I do that until the end of the year I can make some extra money so maybe Nick and I can go away next spring somewhere warm.
Well I am having a hard time typing today so I better go. I did one of those dumb moments just a little bit ago and actually touched the stove when it was hot! DUH! At least the lemon meringue pie looks great! I'll write more later when my finger stops throbbing so bad!
Well I am having a hard time typing today so I better go. I did one of those dumb moments just a little bit ago and actually touched the stove when it was hot! DUH! At least the lemon meringue pie looks great! I'll write more later when my finger stops throbbing so bad!
Sunday, August 26, 2007
Now I know I'm anal...
Okay I knew it before but once i started really getting into organizing our house I realized how bad I really am. I have my binders set up with my marketing plan for Mary Kay, a binder for my new job, and of course the Planning Workbook that I've had for the last year. Then I have all my little notebooks all lined up: Writing journal, two separate book notebooks, and then my everyday journal. I have these little index card boxes with all different ideas for books, home, etc. I swear if I could get more anal it would be a miracle!
Okay, but things are great otherwise. It feels good to be purging and getting all this old stuff out of the way. Our computer is complaining though. I have almost 100GB filled on the computer. Well over 20 is our music, but that's pretty scary. So now I have to organize things on to cd's and get them put away so I don't have to worry about them any longer. LOL! Like that's going to happen. At least I have things cleaned up and feel a lot better!
The writing has been going very well lately. I have gotten the opportunity to write a little each day. Although it's hard to pick up where I left off several months ago. You can tell where I got bored or just didn't know how to fill in the story. All of the sudden I will have like a three paragraph chapter. It's very pathetic. But it's filling out now and I feel very confident that I can get at least one done by the end of the year. And hopefully I can actually get both done.
Now I just have to take this week to prepare for the new job. I'm not worried about the activities or keeping the kids occupied, I'm worried about keeping up with them. I'm really not in shape right now so I'm hoping this week I can work a lot on stretching and getting some much needed exercise in.
Well I suppose I better go work on the bathroom. That wall paper isn't coming down on it's own, although it is coming up in spots on it's own!LOL! I get that one thing done then I can sit down, relax and write a little.
Okay, but things are great otherwise. It feels good to be purging and getting all this old stuff out of the way. Our computer is complaining though. I have almost 100GB filled on the computer. Well over 20 is our music, but that's pretty scary. So now I have to organize things on to cd's and get them put away so I don't have to worry about them any longer. LOL! Like that's going to happen. At least I have things cleaned up and feel a lot better!
The writing has been going very well lately. I have gotten the opportunity to write a little each day. Although it's hard to pick up where I left off several months ago. You can tell where I got bored or just didn't know how to fill in the story. All of the sudden I will have like a three paragraph chapter. It's very pathetic. But it's filling out now and I feel very confident that I can get at least one done by the end of the year. And hopefully I can actually get both done.
Now I just have to take this week to prepare for the new job. I'm not worried about the activities or keeping the kids occupied, I'm worried about keeping up with them. I'm really not in shape right now so I'm hoping this week I can work a lot on stretching and getting some much needed exercise in.
Well I suppose I better go work on the bathroom. That wall paper isn't coming down on it's own, although it is coming up in spots on it's own!LOL! I get that one thing done then I can sit down, relax and write a little.
Friday, August 24, 2007
Starting over is grand...
It seems that life isn't all about work and I'm finally getting a chance to see that! LOL! This week has been great for getting a ton of things done around the house finally. I thought Nick was going to freak out for a moment when he saw me ripping down the wallpaper in the entryway but even with the two tone paint it looks much better than the 80's country wallpaper.
So how am I really doing. I miss Highland Manor, I've even been dreaming about it, but it really does feel good to have a new adventure. I've been writing, and cleaning, and hanging out with my neice and the kids next door. I've been scanning in papers, and cleaning out office supplies, and whenever I get a chance I read! I don't know why but I think that my life has gotten simpler with my leaving Highland Manor. Maybe I was just too wrapped up in it that it permeated the rest of my life. I'll definitely need some clear boundries with the new job, but I don't see it as being as much of a problem.
Well I best run and get all my chores done for the day. I feel a very productive day coming on! Thank the heavens!
So how am I really doing. I miss Highland Manor, I've even been dreaming about it, but it really does feel good to have a new adventure. I've been writing, and cleaning, and hanging out with my neice and the kids next door. I've been scanning in papers, and cleaning out office supplies, and whenever I get a chance I read! I don't know why but I think that my life has gotten simpler with my leaving Highland Manor. Maybe I was just too wrapped up in it that it permeated the rest of my life. I'll definitely need some clear boundries with the new job, but I don't see it as being as much of a problem.
Well I best run and get all my chores done for the day. I feel a very productive day coming on! Thank the heavens!
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Little bit of nothing
Yesterday was the first time I've goofed off in forever. The neighbors came over and we watched movies all afternoon! I forgot how important it is to just have fun!
So what's my new goal! Making sure to have fun everyday and stop making everything so serious. The good news is that I'm working with kids so I can't take everything so damn serious. No, I'm not abandoning my whole way of life. I'm sure I'll still be planning and working hard, but I need to make sure that I get that fun in there too. As I was thinking about this, I remembered this photo from Haley's 3rd birthday party. She reminds me to just have fun. Pretending isn't a bad thing and making believe is just a great way to escape reality. You can be whatever you want to be. Guess that's why I love writing so much. I get to escape this reality and shape my own!
So today I'm going to start writing again and making sure I bring a little nonsense and fun into my life! LOL!
Well I better run! There's a novel calling me back!
Saturday, August 18, 2007
Last day blues.... But life goes on
Yesterday was my last day at Highland Manor. In some ways it was a relief, but instead of celebrating I was too sad to do anything. I'm really going to miss a lot of people at Highland Manor and I wish that I could have continued on for that reason. But I chose the right path, it's just hard not doubting myself.
Last night I went to visit the boys that I will be nannying. They are so super sweet. Brady, five-years-old, wanted to make sure that I would color with him. The first time we met he didn't even want to talk to me and this time he was asking me a ton of questions and wanted to show me all his birthday presents. I'm so excited to work with a family again. This is my ideal situation. I get to be creative and active. I'm really looking forward to my first day.
Otherwise life has been very crazy as usual. Nick had a lymph node explode on Monday and had to have it surgically drained. He's very lucky he didn't get a staph infection. So he's been off most of the week healing. He finally looks much better but he's still moving a little slow. I'm so glad that he decided to go to the doctor right away. I hate to think what might have happened if he would have gone the normal route and not gone to the doctor.
I have been so busy trying to get organized and all of that the last couple weeks. I still have a long way to go but there will always be something to do in my eyes. I haven't even taken time to read or really write. I do feel like if I get this stuff out of the way I will be in a much better spot to be able to write. GET RID OF THE CLUTTER!!!!!! That's what my brain keeps saying.
Speaking of that I better get back to working on the piles. I have all day to get it done, but I'd prefer to get it done and over with so I can rest this afternoon!
I'll be updating this blog a lot more now that I have a normal schedule and will actually be dedicating time to write. YAY! I love new chapters in life!
Last night I went to visit the boys that I will be nannying. They are so super sweet. Brady, five-years-old, wanted to make sure that I would color with him. The first time we met he didn't even want to talk to me and this time he was asking me a ton of questions and wanted to show me all his birthday presents. I'm so excited to work with a family again. This is my ideal situation. I get to be creative and active. I'm really looking forward to my first day.
Otherwise life has been very crazy as usual. Nick had a lymph node explode on Monday and had to have it surgically drained. He's very lucky he didn't get a staph infection. So he's been off most of the week healing. He finally looks much better but he's still moving a little slow. I'm so glad that he decided to go to the doctor right away. I hate to think what might have happened if he would have gone the normal route and not gone to the doctor.
I have been so busy trying to get organized and all of that the last couple weeks. I still have a long way to go but there will always be something to do in my eyes. I haven't even taken time to read or really write. I do feel like if I get this stuff out of the way I will be in a much better spot to be able to write. GET RID OF THE CLUTTER!!!!!! That's what my brain keeps saying.
Speaking of that I better get back to working on the piles. I have all day to get it done, but I'd prefer to get it done and over with so I can rest this afternoon!
I'll be updating this blog a lot more now that I have a normal schedule and will actually be dedicating time to write. YAY! I love new chapters in life!
Sunday, August 12, 2007
Big Changes
So I've come to realize that the whole reason to start this blog was to get out all that stuff I have a hard time saying. I haven't been really good at that. I just keep in my shell and let the world think everything is alright. So I've decided to change my life completely, well almost, and finally be on a better track, a healthier track. So what's going on? Here's the scoop:
I quit Highland Manor after over two years of dedicated work. With all the changes that they have made and some things that they probably didn't know where going on, I was so stressed out I just couldn't keep going. Last December I had started going on anti-anxiety medicine and although it helped, I felt like I lost most of me. I lost the part that was creative and passionate about whatever I did. I felt like a zombie. So last week I decided to cut them out of my life. I can't believe what a difference it made. People have been worried cause I look like I'm down in the dumps, but I'm really not, it's just that my head is now going about five million miles a minute again and I'm trying to sort through all of it! I did need the medication and I don't begrudge anyone who does have to take it. It just wasn't a long term solution for me. I'm trying to work through the panic attacks now and with leaving Highland Manor and the financing struggles I was having from lack of sales, the panic attacks should be decreasing. Well that is if the neighbor stops being such a jerk! LOL! That's not likely to happen!
So what am I doing instead? I am going back to work with kids. I was trying to decide between going back to be a nanny and maybe opening my own daycare. After decided to do in home daycare for the meantime I changed my mind and decided to take the nanny position that was offered me. I will be working in Belleville so I have only a 10 minute drive to work. And the family is awesome. Beth, the mom, is just a year older than me and would be someone that I would hang out with. Brad, the dad, seems really nice and the kids are a blast. Bennett and Brady are full of energy and seem like such sweet boys. This gives me the opportunity to be with kids and enjoy their energy as I'm trying to get all of that energy back. I figure it's going to be a great time planning for activities and running around with the boys. Plus they are having a little one join the family in October so it will be great to work with an infant again as well. Nick and I have been trying to start our own family, but it's been a struggle. We've only been trying a couple months, but we hit a road bump early. In May I had a miscarriage and I think that's where most of the problems stemmed. I realized that I couldn't handle all the things that were going on anymore and I really needed a change in my life. I knew it before, but this was like a major wake up call. It's one thing to realize it and it's another to really know it! But we are continuing on and know that we will get lucky some day soon. And believe me, there will be a huge party when it does happen.
So how do I feel now that I'm changing careers again and have tried overhauling my whole life. Surprisingly I feel amazing. Without the meds I have a harder time controlling my emotions, but man do I feel free. I have gotten so much stuff done it's crazy! My last day at Highland Manor is the 17th and I don't start my job full time until the 4th of September, but I figure that the whole house will be organized by then. I have been busy scanning in paperwork so I can destroy old bank statements and phone bills, and all that other crap that is filling up my filing cabinet. And my life in general. Maybe Nick and I will have to get a scanner so we can just keep on filing everything digitally so I can eliminate paper since I'm horrible about filing stuff.
I am truly going to miss the people at Highland Manor. Maria is such a sweet person and I just started to know Nancy and she seems like a blast. I've had a hard time telling some of the residents I'm leaving. I'm sure I'll be in tears on Friday just knowing how far I've come there and leaving it all behind. I'll make sure to stay in contact with them, but it's always hard when you are undergoing a new adventure.
Good news is I have started writing again. I'm planning on working on my writing, and my reading, while I'm a nanny. I also hope to lose some of the weight I've gained recently. I figure the healthier I get the better our chances for having a healthy baby. Plus I don't mind fitting back into my favorite size 5 jeans! It's been close off and on, but it needs to be a permanent fix! Oh, and with the nanny job I don't have to worry about dress code. One less thing to think about and I can be comfortable enough to think and create!
Okay, well I think I've dumped enough for this entry! But with all the extra time I'll have I'm sure I will be blogging more often and I promise to try to wear my heart on my sleeve a little more!
I quit Highland Manor after over two years of dedicated work. With all the changes that they have made and some things that they probably didn't know where going on, I was so stressed out I just couldn't keep going. Last December I had started going on anti-anxiety medicine and although it helped, I felt like I lost most of me. I lost the part that was creative and passionate about whatever I did. I felt like a zombie. So last week I decided to cut them out of my life. I can't believe what a difference it made. People have been worried cause I look like I'm down in the dumps, but I'm really not, it's just that my head is now going about five million miles a minute again and I'm trying to sort through all of it! I did need the medication and I don't begrudge anyone who does have to take it. It just wasn't a long term solution for me. I'm trying to work through the panic attacks now and with leaving Highland Manor and the financing struggles I was having from lack of sales, the panic attacks should be decreasing. Well that is if the neighbor stops being such a jerk! LOL! That's not likely to happen!
So what am I doing instead? I am going back to work with kids. I was trying to decide between going back to be a nanny and maybe opening my own daycare. After decided to do in home daycare for the meantime I changed my mind and decided to take the nanny position that was offered me. I will be working in Belleville so I have only a 10 minute drive to work. And the family is awesome. Beth, the mom, is just a year older than me and would be someone that I would hang out with. Brad, the dad, seems really nice and the kids are a blast. Bennett and Brady are full of energy and seem like such sweet boys. This gives me the opportunity to be with kids and enjoy their energy as I'm trying to get all of that energy back. I figure it's going to be a great time planning for activities and running around with the boys. Plus they are having a little one join the family in October so it will be great to work with an infant again as well. Nick and I have been trying to start our own family, but it's been a struggle. We've only been trying a couple months, but we hit a road bump early. In May I had a miscarriage and I think that's where most of the problems stemmed. I realized that I couldn't handle all the things that were going on anymore and I really needed a change in my life. I knew it before, but this was like a major wake up call. It's one thing to realize it and it's another to really know it! But we are continuing on and know that we will get lucky some day soon. And believe me, there will be a huge party when it does happen.
So how do I feel now that I'm changing careers again and have tried overhauling my whole life. Surprisingly I feel amazing. Without the meds I have a harder time controlling my emotions, but man do I feel free. I have gotten so much stuff done it's crazy! My last day at Highland Manor is the 17th and I don't start my job full time until the 4th of September, but I figure that the whole house will be organized by then. I have been busy scanning in paperwork so I can destroy old bank statements and phone bills, and all that other crap that is filling up my filing cabinet. And my life in general. Maybe Nick and I will have to get a scanner so we can just keep on filing everything digitally so I can eliminate paper since I'm horrible about filing stuff.
I am truly going to miss the people at Highland Manor. Maria is such a sweet person and I just started to know Nancy and she seems like a blast. I've had a hard time telling some of the residents I'm leaving. I'm sure I'll be in tears on Friday just knowing how far I've come there and leaving it all behind. I'll make sure to stay in contact with them, but it's always hard when you are undergoing a new adventure.
Good news is I have started writing again. I'm planning on working on my writing, and my reading, while I'm a nanny. I also hope to lose some of the weight I've gained recently. I figure the healthier I get the better our chances for having a healthy baby. Plus I don't mind fitting back into my favorite size 5 jeans! It's been close off and on, but it needs to be a permanent fix! Oh, and with the nanny job I don't have to worry about dress code. One less thing to think about and I can be comfortable enough to think and create!
Okay, well I think I've dumped enough for this entry! But with all the extra time I'll have I'm sure I will be blogging more often and I promise to try to wear my heart on my sleeve a little more!
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